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Thursday 31 March 2011

我我我我我我我 "不知道“怎么办“


其实真的很伤心,但我不想表达出来那一种感觉.
不是我不想出来也不是我摆大小姐价值,是我真的怕没有话题跟她们说嘛,haiz.
我真的真的不懂要怎么表达现在的心情,压力渐渐的增加,担心和害怕也慢慢的提高,你永远都不懂我想的是什么,想尝试的告诉你但是又害怕表达方式错误,误会我的意思。我能坚持住吗?我真的很没有自信,害怕你家人的不赞同。我承认我是一个不符合你家人的要求,而你又是家里的独生子,真的不懂该怎么办才好?放手让你找到更好的?还以为这些东西不会发生在我身上,但是现在却成为了我的负担。

 

Wednesday 30 March 2011

Before went to uni.
Extremely exhausted these day due to Menstrual Cycle.
Feel like wanna sleep an entire day can only able to satisfy me,
Basically i intended to get off the bed at 9.30a.m but ended up i woke up at 1.30pm, i think i can be able to compare with swine.@@
I hope i can shout right nw, shout as louder as possible. Anxious everything especially my first year uni,
i definitely cn't get used, cn't even concentrate and sit proper to revise everythings, what should i do??
can someone guild me?? freaking uninteresting in this health science course " LAB MEDICINE" but still i don't wish to fail although i figured out it is an useless course.
Start from today, i need to force myself to do some difficult things, let see

1. No matter what, must bed off at 11.30p.m, NO EXCUSES for sleep late!!!
2. Must do revision after get back home from uni
3. wake up at 9a.m everyday

i should achieve it.
Guess who the terrorism was?

I Love him alot since last year, I dont knw the reason why the hell i was fall for him in sudden,
i mean after when we met up at metro last year.
Perhaps, this is called retribution that is what i should deserved after 3 years ago.
due to i played him before??i guess so.
Anyway.
20 after birthday, but why i always handle all of those problem between us just like a kid?
The worst things is he only 19, obviously he is smaller than me, but he comprises such a mature mind, pretty ridiculous, isnt?


Monday 28 March 2011

this pic exactly not look like me, apparently this photo had been edited by me.:)
Nothing to share actually,
still considering whether go or nt to go metro this coming saturday,
Fren Hyden invited me due to Carwin's birthday. Anyway.
struggling on my biomedical test, after this test i gonna be so free,
actually No, is time to prepare my group Oral presentation " Cystic Fibrosis" which i have to present on week 7.
 3 more days to go and it is April, Time flies man, brain being null still.
all stuff that i learnt in class " GONE"
such a lousy girl i'm.
Hope this sem will getting better and better even though i still unable to get used in uni life.


Saturday 26 March 2011

Destiny

down down down down, i need to eliminate those fucking rely.
Hope everything will getting better and better.
Broke without any reasons.
and u nvr ever understand hw much i worried u, NVR EVER.!!!!

Friday 25 March 2011

不怪

谁都不怪,是我自己没有这个本事找到一个更好的!

Thursday 24 March 2011

讨厌

有点想把她干掉的感觉,
我跟你说最后一次,希望你能处理好
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunday 20 March 2011

处于不稳的状态

对你有一丝的愧疚,想独自霸占你所有的一切,却觉得我真的太自私了,
对你无理取闹和霸道是因为我真的真的太在乎你,害怕你再次的离我而去,
我想尝试的改变我自己的坏脾气,但却一次又一次的落空,很失败吧?


该不该放开你,我常也在想?
如果再一次转身,希望你将来会是幸福的。
信任是我们最大的问题。
真的太难坚持下去:(:(:(
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19/3/2011
谢谢nee陪我说了很多
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